I Love You Mommy, but You Never Love Me

Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair like yours . Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born.



I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.



You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.



Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! …He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you.



You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy.





Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.







I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.





Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?



You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more?





I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.





…Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!



Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!



Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.



Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again!









I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.



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Cinta Itu Ibarat Reaksi Kimia Bisa Berlangsung Two Ways atau One Way

jujusasa_haphap: eh eh

jujusasa_haphap: tau gk

jujusasa_haphap: cinta itu ibarat reaksi kimia bisa berlangsung two ways (suka sama suka) atau one ways (bertepuk sebelah tanagn)

jujusasa_haphap: mantapkan kalimat gue

melody_ciihuy: Gw udah baca! Kan gw rt-in di twitter lo

jujusasa_haphap: hihiiyyyy

jujusasa_haphap: can mau gue ceritain cerita reaksi kimia gk

jujusasa_haphap: jadi ada senyawa A dia bereaksi dengan senyawa B dan reaksi timbal balik

jujusasa_haphap: tapi suatu saat reaksi antar keduanya berhenti

jujusasa_haphap: dan senyawa A dekat dengan senyawa C

jujusasa_haphap: senyawa C adalah senyawa yang belum memiliki pasangan reaksi

jujusasa_haphap: sehingga dia pun meliki ketertarikan untuk bereaksi dengan senyawa A

jujusasa_haphap: tetapi senyawa A ternyata masih memiliki egoisme

melody_ciihuy: Trsss??

jujusasa_haphap: dia tidak suka ketika senyawa B ingin bereaksi dengan senywa D

melody_ciihuy: Apaan sih aii lebay nih sok senyawa2

melody_ciihuy: Lho kenapaaa??

jujusasa_haphap: dengerin dulu ini hasil renunagn kuliah kimia gue

jujusasa_haphap: hahaha

melody_ciihuy: Kan senyawa a sudah sama senyawa c

melody_ciihuy: Okeokeoke

jujusasa_haphap: dia ingin membuat senyawa B ingin bereaksi dengan dia

melody_ciihuy: Hmm lalu?

jujusasa_haphap: tapi jika nanti senyawa B sudah ingin bereaksi, senyawa A tidak mau bereaksi
dengannya

jujusasa_haphap: karena ap?

jujusasa_haphap: karena senyawa A hanya ingin membuat senyawa2 kimia lain bahwa senyawa
B tidak bereaksi dengan senyawa lain sampai dia bereaksi terlebih dahulu

jujusasa_haphap: tapii ternyata

jujusasa_haphap: tanpa senyawa A sadari, sebenarnya dia itu sudah memulai reaksi dengan senyawa C

melody_ciihuy: Karena senyawa a hanya ingin menunjukkan kalau dia memiliki peranan penting
jujusasa_haphap: yupp betulll

melody_ciihuy: Hahahahaa

jujusasa_haphap: da senyawa C pun merespon sinyal situ

jujusasa_haphap: tapi sayang sekali

melody_ciihuy: Apaaaa??

jujusasa_haphap: senyawa A terlalu dibutakan oleh obsesi dia dengan senyawa B sehingga dia tidak menyadari pentingnya senyawa C untuk metabolismenya

jujusasa_haphap: dan ternyata reaksi antar senyawa D dan senyawa B berlangsung dengan baik tanpa senyawa A sadari

melody_ciihuy: Hmm lalu?? Apa masalahnya??

jujusasa_haphap: sementara itu, senyawa C yang selalu berharap dengan senyawa A

jujusasa_haphap: tiba tiba datanglah senyawa E yang memeberikan sinyal

jujusasa_haphap: berkata bantuan enzim sebagai katalisator

melody_ciihuy: Senyawa e memberikan sinyal ke siapa??

jujusasa_haphap: maka senyawa C dan E pun semakin mednekat

jujusasa_haphap: senyawa E memberikan sinyal ke senyawa C

melody_ciihuy: Aii gw ngantuk ngedenger kata2 senyawa

jujusasa_haphap: dan

jujusasa_haphap: ketika senyawa A menyadari bahwa yang ia butuhkan itu adalah senyawa C

jujusasa_haphap: dia terlambat

jujusasa_haphap: karena senyawa C sudah dengan senyawa E

jujusasa_haphap: dan senyawa C pun sedih sebenarnya dengan akhir dia dan senyawa A yang
tidak bisa bereaksi two ways

jujusasa_haphap: senyawa A hanay bisa terdiam karena tidak ada senyawa yang mau bereaksi
denga dia

jujusasa_haphap: the end